I know I’ve never done a post like this before, but there’s a first time for everything so bear with me. 🐻
Look, I love my job. I really Really do! At the beginning of this year I was promoted and even received Two raises. Everything was peachy keen.
As I’m sure some of you know, growth in a company means growth in the amount of work you have to do. I’m fine with this but the way things have been going, I’m not only doing my job, I’m finding myself doing everyone else’s.
It can be incredibly frustrating because as I gain new responsibilities I notice that my coworkers still need me for everything. I could walk away to handle my own tasks and five minutes later all hell is breaking loose. I love being needed but I hate when people can’t seem to do anything without me.
It’s so stressful to have to finish my tasks and theirs. Eventually, I decided that enough is enough. I’ve decided to transfer and move away.
I’ve found my dream apartment (more on that in a later post) and it’s in a small town like I’ve always dreamed of. There’s good food, kind people, and wide open country roads. Naturally, I’ve been really looking forward to moving there.
At least, I was before last week. All of a sudden, managers were praising me. So far I’ve even gotten 3 private talks where the managers tell me how much of an asset I am, and how I do such a wonderful job, and how I’m bound for management.
It’s like, Finally!!! Finally, they’re taking notice to how hard I’ve been working. Finally, they’re proving that making me their go-to person isn’t just a way for them to take advantage of me. Finally I feel validated.
Great right? It would be if it weren’t for the fact that I’ve literally been counting down the days until I jump ship. I’ve been apartment shopping and mapping out what I plan to do with the space I’ll have. I’ve been planning this move for two months now, and I’ve got two more months to go.
This sucks. This stuck feeling, like I’m in quicksand and there’s a vine hanging over head but I’m too afraid to reach for it. I’m lost.
I’ve been so frustrated with work lately, and finally I’ve found a solution only for them to drop a big fat problem in my lap. Now, they’re invoking loyalty. Did I mention that I freaking love this job? Did I also mention that I freaking love these people?!
I keep thinking, what if this new job in this new town is horrible? What if it’s really boring? What if instead of standing out and moving up in this company I end up blending in?
All these feelings and thoughts are swirling around in my head, and I was Not feeling this uncertain until I started being appreciated.
I keep wondering if I go forward with this move, will I be making a mistake?
Anyway, thanks so much for letting me vent to you guys. It actually helped me feel a little better. Any tips or advice would be helpful.
Until Next We Meet,